I was beginning to feel that the inspiration wasn’t going to come, I waited, I prayed and felt silence. Is this how my journey would end?
The lessons I’ve learned are so priceless, I have learned about trials and challenges and why they are so important. I have learned about love, God’s love and your love.....for me. I have applied faith and forgiveness, and then I learned to ‘soar’! This cancer battle has raged as before, but this time I felt at peace. Fear and stress were gone. I was soaring! Days passed and I continued to soar but I was weak and wearing down. I knew the inspiration for my writings came while I was physically weakened. I watched for it, and I waited.....where was it? And how long must I soar? In the dark of night I pondered, I looked for the light. Then I heard the question...my question, “Do I have the faith to ask for a miracle?” Wait!!! What made me think I could ask for a miracle? What have I learned about that? Where was this coming from? My scripture reading a couple months ago, was about the Jaredites. It’s always been one of my favorite Book of Mormon stories. They wandered in the wilderness, being directed by the hand of the Lord. Then the Lord knew it was time for them to come forth unto the land of promise. I love that He always has something better in store for us when we obey Him. After repenting of the evil he had done, the brother of Jared prayed to the Lord and was told to go to work and build a barge. After, what I assume, many discussions with the Lord, the problems were solved and the barges were built. Then, one last thing.....the one thing that the brother of Jared couldn’t do for himself or his family. He needed light for the barges. Going again to the Lord for answers, they counseled and the Lord finally asked him, “What will ye that I should do that ye may have light in your vessels?” Here is the ah-ha moment. After reading this story for many years, my eyes were opened to this passage and I learned that the Lord, in His love, is very interested in providing the miracles that we are in need of. He just needs us to ask him. He needs us to share with Him the needs and longings that are in our heart. The brother of Jared knew what he needed to do....he prepared the stones, then he very humbly asked,”...O Lord, thou hast given us a commandment that we must call upon thee, that from thee we may receive according to our desires....therefore touch these stones, O Lord with thy finger, and prepare them that they may shine forth in darkness; and they shall shine forth unto us...that we may have light while we shall cross the sea....” I love his pleadings and all that transpired. Because of his faith, the brother of Jared received what he desired, the miracle he needed, plus so much more! Ether chapter 3 Seems like there is always something that we can’t possibly do for ourselves.....but, God can. When we’ve done everything we could possibly do, and our faith is bigger than our fear, then it’s time to ask God to do the impossible.....even the unthinkable. I felt that my journey to my promised land of wholeness was in need of ‘light’. A final step that would get me to where I desired to go. I needed healing and I longed for wholeness. Anxiety, about my medical test, that would say if I was cancer free.....or not, was becoming a loud, obnoxious voice. I had been so upbeat about it, then several conversations and observations of others, indicated to me that the possibility is there, that I could need more treatments. Fear and dread have hovered over me since then. I’m exhausted and I can’t begin to think of doing more treatments. I try to embrace my struggling and I search for peace. My soul is tired and I wonder how I can do more. Then, my thought....to ask the Lord for a miracle. Do I have the right? Am I worthy enough for a miracle in my behalf? Why do we doubt? Why do we hesitate? Why is it hard to ask? Where there is faith, miracles happen! Faith..... The Lord needs me to have more faith....to believe in Him! Funny how we are so close to the answers we are seeking and can’t see them. Like the brother of Jared, the Lord had been preparing me for this moment. The Lord was giving me the ‘light’ I needed to compete my journey and my writings one tiny inspiration at a time. Bit my bit He has humbled me and has taught me. And now.....He is asking me, “What will ye that I should do...?” Simple words, yet so profound! A huge faith step! “For with God nothing shall be impossible.” Luke 1:37 Why do we doubt? Why do we hesitate? Why is it hard to ask? “Ask, and it shall be given you.... (Matthew 7:7) What is your challenge? What do you need the Lord to do for you? What miracle are you in need of today? Listen, He is asking! ARTWORK: Titled - Be Thou Humble This painting came about several years ago when my mother had just gone through open heart surgery. She was struggling to regain her health and feel like she would be strong again. I was concerned about her and felt like she needed a miracle in her life at that time. I had hoped that if I painted something to remind her that the Lord was there to help her heal, and that with her prayers and strengthened faith, she would get the desires of her heart. The following scripture was the inspiration I used to go with this painting when I gave it to her. “Be thou humble; and the Lord thy God shall lead thee by the hand, and give thee answers to thy prayers” (D&C 112:10). The Lord loves each one of us and wants us to know that He is there to provide whatever miracle we are in need of. Just reach out to Him, ask Him. You desire and deserve a miracle today!
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Sheri Nielson Christensen
5/16/2018 03:00:46 pm
I admire you so much! This painting of you mother catches her face as I remember it! I'm praying for a fast recovery! Hang in there "Dear Light"! you are amazing!
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